One Month in Haiti...Thoughts

On Monday I will have been in Haiti officially for one month. So many thoughts are running through my head as I reflect over that time. God has opened so many doors and I have learned far more then I ever thought possible.

The past four weeks have brought amazing and difficult experiences trying to learn the language, getting to know the area, beginning to build relationships with individuals in the community, growing in understanding of the daily struggles of life here, contemplating the differences between life here and life in the states, and seeing God’s hand in beautiful and unexpected places.

Through all the lessons, one has proven to be vital to daily life here. That is, complete dependency on the Lord! Many days I awake unsure of what I will be doing that day, who I will interact with, or what opportunities God may present. I must confess this uncertainty creates anxiety at times as I struggle to gain some control and be an efficient American. However, I am slowly learning the art of laying things before the Lord and leaving them there. I wake each morning to spend time reading my bible and searching my heart, laying each fear, anxiety, and insecurity before the one who truly has control. I am reminded of Philippians 4:6-7 (KJV), “Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” How true it is!

Jesus says again and again that those who love him will obey his commands, and yet, I find myself still struggling for control, trying to keep all the pieces going and to stay on top of it all. So the real question is, “Do I really trust God?” I am learning day by day that to honestly trust in the Lord is the true breath of life. I am able to leave my time with the Lord each morning with a fresh attitude for the day, and a heart that is open to serve no matter what opportunity he presents. Basically, I leave my time with freedom! This freedom changes my whole outlook on the day and continues to help me to adjust and be open to God’s plan for each day. Praise be to God from whom all blessings flow!

I pray that these thoughts are uplifting and encouraging! I thank each of you for your support and prayers during this time. I am humbled by your love and thank the Lord for the role you each play in my life and in God’s greater kingdom! You are also in my thoughts and prayers as I begin each day! If you have specific prayer requests, please let me know.